Anger management
I woke up this morning, as grumpy as disagreeable as i could be, and totally unlike the contented and happy girl i was when i went to bed last night.
Its a curious phenomenon which ive encountered many times and i was gratified to discover, all those years ago, that i wasnt alone - it happened to katy too.
Katy Carr from 'what katy did'
It was a revelation...tht book..
I remember reading 'What katy did' when i was an equally silly and hot headed girl of 11..and i could relate to the stubborn and quicktempered katy, always getting into scrapes and petty fights with the younger siblings...soft on the inside hard on the outside...had all the potential to be loving and affectionate but somehow it came out the total opposite...it was all too familiar (still is, sadly).... i remember how i read that book over and over again and as proof of that, it lies now in my bookshelf, tattered,dog-eared (i try not to tho!!!) and half the pages coming loose...all signs of my enthusiasm and fond obsession with the book...vividly remember (reading abt) the day she wakes up grouchy and irritable, the ill fated day tht she falls of the swing simply coz of her strong rebellious streak and impulse to defy the well meaning aunt izzie. That chapter made an impression on me..i remember thinking, if only the aunt had told her why she shldnt swing that day..i felt katy was justified in wishing she had been forewarned..but thats life fr u...we dont get elaborate warnings, we get a sign, a hint a clue at the most, we either take it or we don't - and then face the consequences.
I loved that book...the names/characters...Immogen Clarke,Clover,..their adventures, the picnics, the loft, the poems and rhymes like stories within the story (thinks of mrs smith standing there talking about the russian doll effect and chaucer)...the heavenly tasting (or so i imagined) drink that i used dream about..the cinnamon sticks they chewed on..
Pooh and i talked about divine interventions the other night. How sometimes such terrible things happen to us, massively unfortunate or so it may seem at that time..but there's always a silver lining..perhaps tht needed to take place in order for something far worse to be prevented?Perhaps what could have followed wld have been far worse than the 'divine intervention' tho it seemed like the greatest calamity at that time.
Sheer naivete?Disillusioned and Idealistic?Maybe.
Optimism and undying faith?The ability/willingness to see the sun behind the clouds?
Perhaps.
Its all about perception.
That book had a lot to offer...
(I still wonder how one can go to bed feeling one way and emerge the following morning feeling completely the opposite way)
...lessons about life and the learning journey that Katy embarks upon...and how she evolves from an aggressive bully, albeit with a good heart, into a mature and giving young lady. Wow... maybe i have some hope.. *wishful thinking* - gets one nowhere or so ive been told..but it cld just be a start cldnt it.An initial spark might be all it takes..
Everything after all, needs to start somewhere.
Its a curious phenomenon which ive encountered many times and i was gratified to discover, all those years ago, that i wasnt alone - it happened to katy too.
Katy Carr from 'what katy did'
It was a revelation...tht book..
I remember reading 'What katy did' when i was an equally silly and hot headed girl of 11..and i could relate to the stubborn and quicktempered katy, always getting into scrapes and petty fights with the younger siblings...soft on the inside hard on the outside...had all the potential to be loving and affectionate but somehow it came out the total opposite...it was all too familiar (still is, sadly).... i remember how i read that book over and over again and as proof of that, it lies now in my bookshelf, tattered,dog-eared (i try not to tho!!!) and half the pages coming loose...all signs of my enthusiasm and fond obsession with the book...vividly remember (reading abt) the day she wakes up grouchy and irritable, the ill fated day tht she falls of the swing simply coz of her strong rebellious streak and impulse to defy the well meaning aunt izzie. That chapter made an impression on me..i remember thinking, if only the aunt had told her why she shldnt swing that day..i felt katy was justified in wishing she had been forewarned..but thats life fr u...we dont get elaborate warnings, we get a sign, a hint a clue at the most, we either take it or we don't - and then face the consequences.
I loved that book...the names/characters...Immogen Clarke,Clover,..their adventures, the picnics, the loft, the poems and rhymes like stories within the story (thinks of mrs smith standing there talking about the russian doll effect and chaucer)...the heavenly tasting (or so i imagined) drink that i used dream about..the cinnamon sticks they chewed on..
Pooh and i talked about divine interventions the other night. How sometimes such terrible things happen to us, massively unfortunate or so it may seem at that time..but there's always a silver lining..perhaps tht needed to take place in order for something far worse to be prevented?Perhaps what could have followed wld have been far worse than the 'divine intervention' tho it seemed like the greatest calamity at that time.
Sheer naivete?Disillusioned and Idealistic?Maybe.
Optimism and undying faith?The ability/willingness to see the sun behind the clouds?
Perhaps.
Its all about perception.
That book had a lot to offer...
(I still wonder how one can go to bed feeling one way and emerge the following morning feeling completely the opposite way)
...lessons about life and the learning journey that Katy embarks upon...and how she evolves from an aggressive bully, albeit with a good heart, into a mature and giving young lady. Wow... maybe i have some hope.. *wishful thinking* - gets one nowhere or so ive been told..but it cld just be a start cldnt it.An initial spark might be all it takes..
Everything after all, needs to start somewhere.
posted by Kumari | 3:55 PM
3 Comments:
oh my goddd.. short post! hehe
Yea I remember u reading that book in sec school. Always used to wonder how u cld read it.. and "Little Women".
I preferred "Anne of Green Gables"!
Now THAT.. is an awesome book.
Agent...X
dun listen to agent X...she obviously knows NOTHING about books! Yeah...and I LOVED that book too!AND Little Women *glares at Agent X*. I just had to read all the books in the Katy series...
and I like what yu said about Life never giving us explicit warnings, only hints and clues. But I guess the more we are "in tune" to life the easier it gets to "decode" the clues.
gosh...such a short post?! is anything wrong? haha...well it was a good read by the way! loved the laughter post...quite scary though! so you're working on the emotional leve then, laughter then anger...whats next? can i hazard a guess? hmm...nah...will see if i get it rite on your next post!
take c.a.r.e....
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