hope
Ive grown up hearing frm my mom that if u you want something SOO bad, you'd get it, maybe not now maybe not soon, and probably not when u expect it, but someday.as long as you persevere, keep wanting it with mind,soul and spirit, and work towards it, it will happen.
Ive spent my life (thus far) trying to reconcile that with the power of prayer.of detachment.whereby you abandon everything and throw yourself at the hands of god and the powers beyond/above us.There is the issue of control and agency and empowerment that i havent quite managed to reconcile though. There is the power of the subconscious mind which tells us to take agency in maknig our dreams/thoughts come true..and there is the other sch of thought about letting go and letting god - tho this probably shld be done after you've taken all the measures u need to, whatever is within your control. so when ds one know one has to take the bull by the horns and be all proactive and run for the bus that perhaps just started moving off...as opposed to taking the next one..and even when it comes to waiting for a sign..waht if you've missed the bus with the messiah in it and youre still waiting...
Im waiting for a sign and im not sure if theyre coming at me already, or if theyre staring me in the face and i'm looking beyond them....or if theyre just things im reading too much into. i'm still waiting and giving it thought.and praying for guidance coz i always do.and hopefully when a sign comes my way,i'll recognise it.
Right just had to get that out of the way.wasnt intending to write all that but i had to spill it to make way for the other thoughts to come through.
OK....
my bro just informed me abt the whole bomb thingi in london ...im still not yet over.....gosh that really shook me up- have good friends and family members there and i really freaked out..the friends are ok, thank god.....& to think it happened at a place so familiar to me, close to home even...managed to contact the friends and im thanking god everyone's ok, and i hope it all ends here....damn...our lives are so fragile, so ephemeral...i'm getting a horrible tingly feeling, what lavz recently described as the 'feeling of somene walking over your grave' - i'm not sure i understood it fully then, but it seems to say it for now.
its scares me, how much we take for granted, on a second to second basis...
and one second is all it takes , to make all the difference between life and death.
Im going to stop here now. and i wish & pray as i type these words, that people responsible for such atrocities all over the world, would say the very same thing to themselves.
Ive spent my life (thus far) trying to reconcile that with the power of prayer.of detachment.whereby you abandon everything and throw yourself at the hands of god and the powers beyond/above us.There is the issue of control and agency and empowerment that i havent quite managed to reconcile though. There is the power of the subconscious mind which tells us to take agency in maknig our dreams/thoughts come true..and there is the other sch of thought about letting go and letting god - tho this probably shld be done after you've taken all the measures u need to, whatever is within your control. so when ds one know one has to take the bull by the horns and be all proactive and run for the bus that perhaps just started moving off...as opposed to taking the next one..and even when it comes to waiting for a sign..waht if you've missed the bus with the messiah in it and youre still waiting...
Im waiting for a sign and im not sure if theyre coming at me already, or if theyre staring me in the face and i'm looking beyond them....or if theyre just things im reading too much into. i'm still waiting and giving it thought.and praying for guidance coz i always do.and hopefully when a sign comes my way,i'll recognise it.
Right just had to get that out of the way.wasnt intending to write all that but i had to spill it to make way for the other thoughts to come through.
OK....
my bro just informed me abt the whole bomb thingi in london ...im still not yet over.....gosh that really shook me up- have good friends and family members there and i really freaked out..the friends are ok, thank god.....& to think it happened at a place so familiar to me, close to home even...managed to contact the friends and im thanking god everyone's ok, and i hope it all ends here....damn...our lives are so fragile, so ephemeral...i'm getting a horrible tingly feeling, what lavz recently described as the 'feeling of somene walking over your grave' - i'm not sure i understood it fully then, but it seems to say it for now.
its scares me, how much we take for granted, on a second to second basis...
and one second is all it takes , to make all the difference between life and death.
Im going to stop here now. and i wish & pray as i type these words, that people responsible for such atrocities all over the world, would say the very same thing to themselves.
posted by Kumari | 7:46 PM
2 Comments:
"what if you've missed the bus with the messiah in it and youre still waiting..."
HAHAHAHAHAHA
hilarious!
anyway, I'm also having the same prob as yu in trying to reconcile the two (agency vs submission). But I was talking to someone who said this tension only comes about when we perceive ourselves as separate from God/ the powers above/below. If we see ourselves as a part of god, then our intentions and God's are the same.
do yu agree? I stioll see a proble,m
exactly my prob!
the whole empowerment issue..coz if we're part of the whole big picture,(drop in the ocean theory) and the subscribe to the idea that god is within all of us, then we're empowered.so where's the submission.so are we within,is god within or are we entirely seperate entities.different religions/faiths/beleifs have different answers of course.
are we all trying to answer a rhetorical qstn or is it just up to each individual to discover for his/herself..
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