So long and thanks for all the fish

Funny how things worked out in the end..I actually made it to the airport and waved till i saw the last of them...i dind't even think i'd have a chance to pop in to her home and say bye to my best friend who's just gotten married and is now probably on the flight to the uk, where she's moving to, for good. I'm used to her coming and going and each time i tell myself its no big deal coz shes gonna be back in a month (3 max) anyway...this time round, however its impossible to console myself with that thought. She will be back in 3 months im quite certain of that, coz her parents wld want her home..but that isnt the issue...the irreversible change here is the fact that she's married. We've all been so preoccupied and busy with the wedding that we underestimated the concept of her being married...which of coz is a life altering event so one can never be prepared for how it hits you..It's not necessarily a bad kinda change..no need for pessimism and melodrama and too much melancholy.its a good thing, and im very happy for her. but im just human and there's jst a tiny part of me that's not exactly..embracing this erm..development.But hey noone said we had to luv every single change in our life, important thing is gettnig used to it anyway right. I'm not hoping to be best friends with the husband overnight..but overtime i think we might become friends and i just hope we'll have that kinda time on our side.
I don't think im losing my best friend..ive just got to accept that things will definitely change and they already have..i can't call her room any time of the morning & night like i used to..i cldnt just walk in and plop myself on her bed...i cldnt lounge around like it was my room as much as it was hers..perhaps theyre all self-imposed restrictions and i dont have to be so finicky..but in this area, i'd rather err on the side of caution..maintaining a respectable distance i think is the best way to maintain close relations...
It was so bizarre and surreal being at the airport..especially when i wasnt intending to go - a rather deliberate decision on my part.But i guess i just went with the flow, there was no time to think and entertain paranoia.. and perhaps it was just meant to be that way...thanks to dv for his impulsive move to jump into the car and get me in as well. I'm so glad he did. Like he said, its some kinda closure.
Its probably no big deal at all...and perhaps i sound like a teenage drama queen...but its hard saying goodbye..when there's sooo much that's been left unsaid,and you dont know where to begin...when you're not sure what u can and should say ...whn ur wondering when u might actually get ur chance to say it all...when your both wondering if the days of reckless abandon, of sharing every single insignificant detail and analysing every bit of some incident are over...when she looks at you funny and hugs you like neither one of us wants to let go. its hard saying goodbye..but well life goes on..and times like this its important to put things in perspective.
It is perhaps not goodbye, but take care and its just a matter of time till we meet again. Sure things will change..for what's left if not for change..but hey...somethings will always remain and that i will cherish...
"How lucky I am to have known someone who was so hard to say goodbye to."- Unknown
I beleive i should punctuate my life with commas and .... instead of fullstops..so there's always something more to come and nothnig ever reallly is the end.
"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning."
so lavs...here's wishing you a glorious married life....and in honour of all the evenings- all those yrs ago, when we were 12 and clueless- that we spent browsing in bestsellers bookshop in gardens, (THE highlight of our happening social lives)
"so long and thanks for all the fish."
We didint know it then, but i guess we were always meant to have lasted this long.
"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I intended to be. "--Douglas Adams

ps : she's probably gonna kill me for this pic - but i cldnt's resist!