Analyze this
Sometimes when something happens...we don't give it much thought..we jst let it go..and then other things happen, and u sense some remote relation between the events...and somethings click and i think that's when and how the most duh things hit you..
Was talking to 2 good friends today(ribena berry & pooh)...and incidentally, they were saying differnet things to me..and both kinda inspired this contemplative ..er..mood, for the want of a better word.We were talking, seperately about the concept of time and also friendship..for a bit of background... both these wonderful,wonderful people have been a part of my life for quite a number of years now.. but for different reasons which i never really thought much about, we didn't develop our relationship...they were both my friends, perhaps a little more than acquaintances..when we met up/talked we had a good time and that's about it. i liked them both alot but had my own insecurities and was extremely absorbed wthin in my own little circle of friends..my comfort zone and safety space, which is the case till today and that's somethnig i'll not want to change for the world...i'm more convinced everyday that even if that circle expands, or evolves into some other shape, it will remain as special and indispensable to my life.Recently ive been thinking there is so much more out there...so many others, whom we can share with, learn from, and once we get past the little bubble we set around ourselves in, we discover so much more, both within and without...and often its not coz we dont want to take the 1st step..its just that we dont see the need to..we're contented in our own worlds...in blissful oblivion..until sometimes, things change so much..and somethnig drastic happens, which forces u out of ur own shell..and then u realise how much you have shut out and you wonder why u didnt see certain things before..but like i say, it's never too late to make a start in the right direction...adn step out into the sunshine! (ribena u've heard this one - and i'm sure u know what i mean - since u'r the fresh air fish - i mean person and all)
Been reflecting alot on another friend recently..(can't think of a name fr her now but someday i will..and it'll be synonymous with strength.)..and some changes & challenges she's been going through..realised how much time we've let slip by and how much has transpired in that time...i wish i had been there fr her...though i hope..and beleieve she probably had her own guardian angels, those who were meant to be there with her at that time, to help her through... i'm sure everyone goes through a bad patch at some point or other..and during our darkest moments we cling on to the little hope we have and even when we know there are ppl who care and are always there for us, we feel so terribly alone and so afraid..i dont want to be mighty mouse (those who know me would know how ridiculous and ironic this imagery is btw) or try be the knight in shining armour there for every damsel/dope in distress (excuse the sexist cliches!!)...but i dont want to look back and ask myself "where was i , when my friend needed all the support she could..when she needed it most??"I'm working on improving my relationships with ppl in my life now..smethnig i wish i had done much earlier..and not after/because i came this close to losing someone..but that;s how it is in life isnt it..we dont really value many things untill we lose them..or come close to it. I just hope and pray that somewhere somehow alarm bells will go off in my head before it really is too late...
Was telling this friend of mine, (pooh) about waiting for godot, this awesome book i did for A level Lit..one of those phenonmenal inspiring things which make all the sense in the world despite and through the abstraction and overwhelming sense of emptiness and nihilism...very meaningful.Those who've read this will know what i'm talking about.So i was trying to tell Pooh about this play, but of coz u can never really communicate all that it embodies.....well she wsa saying somethnig about how she was just waiting..and waiting and waiting...and that's waht sparked it off...and i told her about this play where these 2 guys do just that..they wait, day after day, for godot..they dont know who/what godot is, how he looks, when/how he will come or if he will ever come in the 1st place!So they just wait..and each day resembles the day before with minor changes here and there...blurring boundaries..but after a while, as the reader you know the pattern...but they just live it.
Such is life my friends..we're all waiting for our own godots, sometimes we dont know what we're waiting for and it actually passes us by..but life goes on..and all we can do is live.I dont mean to end off sounding morbid or tragic..infact a sublime sense of peace and order has taken over...and this doesnt happen too often so i shall bask in it for a while...
Oh..until i i need to go get started working on my presentation which is coming closer..too close for comfort..
looks at the clock... :s
Did i say sometimes we get a slap of reality when we least expect it, but most need it???
*Bubble bursts*
Carpe Diem
Was talking to 2 good friends today(ribena berry & pooh)...and incidentally, they were saying differnet things to me..and both kinda inspired this contemplative ..er..mood, for the want of a better word.We were talking, seperately about the concept of time and also friendship..for a bit of background... both these wonderful,wonderful people have been a part of my life for quite a number of years now.. but for different reasons which i never really thought much about, we didn't develop our relationship...they were both my friends, perhaps a little more than acquaintances..when we met up/talked we had a good time and that's about it. i liked them both alot but had my own insecurities and was extremely absorbed wthin in my own little circle of friends..my comfort zone and safety space, which is the case till today and that's somethnig i'll not want to change for the world...i'm more convinced everyday that even if that circle expands, or evolves into some other shape, it will remain as special and indispensable to my life.Recently ive been thinking there is so much more out there...so many others, whom we can share with, learn from, and once we get past the little bubble we set around ourselves in, we discover so much more, both within and without...and often its not coz we dont want to take the 1st step..its just that we dont see the need to..we're contented in our own worlds...in blissful oblivion..until sometimes, things change so much..and somethnig drastic happens, which forces u out of ur own shell..and then u realise how much you have shut out and you wonder why u didnt see certain things before..but like i say, it's never too late to make a start in the right direction...adn step out into the sunshine! (ribena u've heard this one - and i'm sure u know what i mean - since u'r the fresh air fish - i mean person and all)
Been reflecting alot on another friend recently..(can't think of a name fr her now but someday i will..and it'll be synonymous with strength.)..and some changes & challenges she's been going through..realised how much time we've let slip by and how much has transpired in that time...i wish i had been there fr her...though i hope..and beleieve she probably had her own guardian angels, those who were meant to be there with her at that time, to help her through... i'm sure everyone goes through a bad patch at some point or other..and during our darkest moments we cling on to the little hope we have and even when we know there are ppl who care and are always there for us, we feel so terribly alone and so afraid..i dont want to be mighty mouse (those who know me would know how ridiculous and ironic this imagery is btw) or try be the knight in shining armour there for every damsel/dope in distress (excuse the sexist cliches!!)...but i dont want to look back and ask myself "where was i , when my friend needed all the support she could..when she needed it most??"I'm working on improving my relationships with ppl in my life now..smethnig i wish i had done much earlier..and not after/because i came this close to losing someone..but that;s how it is in life isnt it..we dont really value many things untill we lose them..or come close to it. I just hope and pray that somewhere somehow alarm bells will go off in my head before it really is too late...
Was telling this friend of mine, (pooh) about waiting for godot, this awesome book i did for A level Lit..one of those phenonmenal inspiring things which make all the sense in the world despite and through the abstraction and overwhelming sense of emptiness and nihilism...very meaningful.Those who've read this will know what i'm talking about.So i was trying to tell Pooh about this play, but of coz u can never really communicate all that it embodies.....well she wsa saying somethnig about how she was just waiting..and waiting and waiting...and that's waht sparked it off...and i told her about this play where these 2 guys do just that..they wait, day after day, for godot..they dont know who/what godot is, how he looks, when/how he will come or if he will ever come in the 1st place!So they just wait..and each day resembles the day before with minor changes here and there...blurring boundaries..but after a while, as the reader you know the pattern...but they just live it.
Such is life my friends..we're all waiting for our own godots, sometimes we dont know what we're waiting for and it actually passes us by..but life goes on..and all we can do is live.I dont mean to end off sounding morbid or tragic..infact a sublime sense of peace and order has taken over...and this doesnt happen too often so i shall bask in it for a while...
Oh..until i i need to go get started working on my presentation which is coming closer..too close for comfort..
looks at the clock... :s
Did i say sometimes we get a slap of reality when we least expect it, but most need it???
*Bubble bursts*
Carpe Diem
posted by Kumari | 1:24 AM
3 Comments:
i think ppl like epistupid shld be banned fr blogging.she and her stupid ( as the nickname suggests) theories and ideas... makes ppl think ! and that ppl- is not gd at all.. becos it freaks u out and makes u question yr existence and what the hell u have been doing with yr miserable life. i am speaking on behalf of those who do not wish to analyse and question every single thing that happens becos some ppl (like me) have better things to do like study 4 A levels which is in 30 days.. aaaaahhhhhhhh !!!!!
- Sister of epistupid who wasted 1 precious hour, waiting to read her blog!!!
U always write such cheem stuff.. I dunno what to comment. :P
Actually I do..
- don't feel guilty about 'not being there' for her.. coz u can do it now. At least you are making the effort, which in itself is commendable.
-who r the 2 good friends?
-your sis reads yer blog?
-I can't wait too kuminathan. Will be spending the next 3 months with some of the best people around. okok.. u're included. ;) Good luck with October. It'll pass before u know it.
yours starvingly,
Applejuice
I just wanna say i thoroughly enjoyed that blog..and a lot of what you said really hit home. Agreed.. sometimes i just have not been there for ppl, particularly close friends. And one day it just hits you, that in the grand scheme of things.. these are the ppl who are gonna see you through life.
I think its part being satisfied with you circle and part, fear of the unknown.. (for me at least). Friendly at a surface level i can do.. but to speak my thoughts.. that takes time. And recently i've realised that i listen more than i talk... and its strange... sometimes i feel good abt that and sometimes i feel like i wanna say something but cant. Its hard to explain.. But one thing's for sure.. you're an absolutely wonderful person to talk to. And one whose opinion i truly value... Its hard to comeby someone with just the right mix of everything (our common buddy is another... *grin*) i honestly wish i had gotten to know u much better earlier. you are truly a blessing to others :)
Anyways.. before i get all mushy and u start sobbing.. i shall end my long-winded comment.. and disclaimer: doing this in the middle of the night and damn tired.. almost asleep. and i'm really sorry if all the above was gibberish :(
Take care girlie.. and hope to meet up with u again to study.. i majorly had a good time :) And yup.. will bring that CD for u if i remember... so we can drool over his voice together. I hope the coffee thing happens too... ;)
Till then... oh... here it is!
"Nuclear wars and oil spills
Terrorist attacks, hostages killed
The list goes on, but why should we care?
We're all gonna die someday"
hee hee... damn strange lah this song.... :)
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